I once loved with every cell
Rna replication almost smothered me
I once loved with my breathe
Exhaling till eyes bulge grasping at nothing with open hands
I once loved so deeply I lost myself in the idea of love the fantasy of love
I once loved and loved me and I loved too much and he stopped loving me
Words don't fail me now Spill out like the wails of mothers losing their babies at the auction block words comfort me like the prayers at dawn during The Fast to our benevolent God Muster up lifelong
It feels like flushed cheeks and pulsating jawbones It feels empty It feels like blood rapidly popping as it travels from heart It feels like nothing It feels like under/over eating It feels like a vo
The anxiety makes the stomach flip The depression makes the limbs heavy The tug and pull Is overwhelming and nauseating Gags Short breaths Teeth chattering Big sighs as tears roll down
